After having my “ego” bruised a little too much, I’m starting to see that I am definitley part of the problem. I’ve noticed a pattern. When I do allow a guy to get close to me, or when I do actually take down a few BRICKS...I tend to also just make that guy my main priority. Like literally it’s all about making sure he’s okay and that I’m making him happy. I’ve noticed I will neglect quite a lot..for that guy. I’m at a point in my life right now where I should be focused on....God and having a better relationship with him...Also.. ME...my KIDS...(not someone else’s)...and my recovery. I know what I need to change, and I’m glad that I’m at least aware of what issues...(which there’s a LOT) but I’m aware, and I’m definitley going to work on them. Not for anyone else, but for me. I’m just glad that I can see where I AM the problem...or part of it...and not play victim. I really try not to be that woman who needs sympathy. I’m learning what most women aren’t taught.....
Just trying to figure myself out….feelings all over the place, but keeps life pretty interesting!