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Me, the difficult one…

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By Sarah Lynn Lilley

Me, the difficult one. Given that title at birth, or maybe I earned it. Either way...I own it. Your welcome. I am unapologetic about me, because the dirty paths have taught me not to be sorry for who I am. So I’m not. Maybe that sounds cold, but who are you to judge the temperature of my heart if you’ve never offered your own. This ever, so complicated puzzle of me, it’s only for the ones much deeper than language written on the skin. Bring me the one who’s not afraid to rip me open...take my heart out...listen closely to what the butterflies say, and turn it into poetry. I dare you to love me like that.


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  1. KillaB2:24 AM

    love this chick u inspire me to write much love 🖤

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    1. Sarah Lynn Lilley12:11 PM

      Thank you so much! And that makes me feel so good to know my writing inspired you to write too! I’m still new at this blogging thing, but I am learning…and hope one day to have my own site out there, with not only my blogs, but other women’s words too. Also, would love to write a book one day…who knows! Thanks again, and if you have a blog too, send me the link and I’ll check it out! 😘

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